I Missed My Blog....

I have so much to say, so much to document, more for myself.  Mainly to remember this time in my life.  I have been away (from my blog) for so long I feel like I have to play catch up and therefore everything becomes rushed and I miss me in the equation.  So I am starting slow and with something that has been on my mind.

Recently one of my favorite bloggers was featured on the Oprah show.  I wish I had time for Oprah and unfortunately I missed the whole episode, but caught this clip that says so much and is exactly how I feel about motherhood....

http://www.oprah.com/media/20090924-tows-stephanie-struggle-crash


Jake and I having been following her blog for years and I have alway love the aesthetics and the poetry and the love story.  I related to the idea of being a mom and wanting nothing more.  And I secretly want to take pictures as well as (I assume) she does.  Then it became all about the crash and the tragedy and loss of something and everything and now I see nothing.  I still pain for her...that is the best way to describe it.  However I also admire this stranger and she inspires me to be a better person.  I love having simple and beautiful things in your life to remind you of what is really important.  The pumpkins on the porch and the crispness in the air and the sun peeking through the clouds and you children and the ability to hold them.   This morning was a hard morning to get up but my favorite part (of my day) was that all four of us were snuggling in bed.  Gracie announced like she does "Mommy you're my most favoritest mommy ever." And asked Daddy to move so she could be by me.  Jake was holding me at the time and Andrew was cuddling on the other side.  How am I so lucky, to be loved by all, in my bed, the moment my eyes open.  Yes we were late to church, however I thought about this morning all day long and it made me happy.  I get to overworked and overwhelmed and I take to many things for granted (including the three that love me the most), however Stephanie before and after the crash reminds me of what I truly love....

To all my good girlfriends, here is a little gift from me to you, enjoy.
http://www.nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/