I had a heart to heart with my Emmy today about blogs and facebook. I always feel behind and unable to express everything that has transpired. It leaves me feeling like it is another chore to finish rather than something rewarding. I am not sure but, I bet we all feel a kind of pressure to maintain this "interwebs" existance and I never have time in my day to indulge. I am sure I am the only one putting this pressure on myself, however it is real to me and so I made a decision. I am going to follow Nienie example and write about today and the moment. It might be as simple as a thought or sentence. I don't want to worry that my blog is too redundant and boring or like everyone elses. So I am resigned to write for me, as a journal. Which is my reason for starting a blog and not worry what anyone will think. It is so weird to admit that sometimes I care what someone thinks of me. What a heavy thought.
Anyways.
Today was a trying day...my eyes feel heavy with the weight of today's challenges. However I was determined to fight through it; so the kids and I went on a bike ride. It was so rewarding to feel the cool crisp air and get exercise (my secret anti-depressant) I just want to point out that you know it has been a good day when you smell like dirt. (Sexy, huh? Jake.) My idea seemed to have worked and it started a change in the day's taxing rhythm. We saw a cute girlfriend sitting in her rocking chair, enjoying the efforts of her beautiful yard, with her baby boy (whom I love and he loves Sissy) playing in the sandbox. I wish I had a camera; it was serene.
I am so impressed with Sissy and the distance we went. And Andrew is such a kid. Let me explain, this year I have realized over and over again that he is not a baby anymore. It is really a trip. Today was no exception as I watched him ride his bike all over and teach himself really incredible tricks...tricks that I have never even thought of trying. Man is this a new chapter in my book? Maybe? I am not sure I am ready to admit this yet.
All is well.
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I decided to check your blog and see the pic of gracie and the red sunflowers (which is stunning by the way) and was surprised to read about me :) I would have never guessed you were stressed today. In fact, when Justin got home I told him about how much Mattox enjoyed the few minutes he played with Gracie and I said, "I don't know how Rachel does it. She always has SO much energy and enthusiasm." It is contagious. I was glad you stopped by on your ride. I am also glad I decided to put on a bra before I went outside today with Mattox or that could have been awkward. :)
I love the picture of the standing on the bike tricks, reminds me of my Kodiak. The scary thing is now I have to not watch because the tricks get bigger and faster. Enjoy all the little steps they are fun to experience and learn from.
Love it! I'm glad our little chat helped. I love reading your blog so keep it up, sister. :)
Miss you already!
Good for you Rachel. Keep it up. I just updated my blog after a month or more of not doing anything on it... it seemed overwhelming and it is and I am still not up to date, but my blog is for me and my kids so I will just keep trying to fit it all in and one day we will get to go back and read about all the silly things and everything else we did. Keep it up!
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